Sunday, December 28, 2008

Random observations in the past year

It really helps to have the right perspective about one’s priorities. Clarity of one’s own thoughts makes life a little less complicated..:)

Its great to explore the unknown places. Our country is amazingly beautiful.

I find it very difficult to cook. Honest. The initial enthusiasm lasts a meal or two and then it ends up being nothing but a drudge.

Its stupid to think 'My work will automatically get me noticed'. Those days have long gone by. Its time to get yourself noticed and u need to shout it out 'this is what I can do'.

It makes perfect sense to address the issue at hand, instead of fighting it or trying to wish it away.

I hate to confess this but m sensing a generation gap between my parents and me. Now sometimes,it takes an effort on my part to reason it out with them.

I am laziness personified. Its nice for me to know that I have grown a little concerned of the way I look..earlier I gave it a damn….but now m learning to take care of myself.

When you know u are being rubbed the wrong way, give it to him/her then and there.

I thought I could judge people well.but ahem….people are like a labyrinth….guiding you the wrong way.

Your efforts pay…so work hard…workoholism as religion isn’t a bad idea …

Caffeine does help in injecting a bit of energy into u till the office clock says its time to go!!

The small things of life…make it beautiful…

Saturday, December 27, 2008

m lovin it!

its been just two days that I have resigned from work. and life is seeming to be heavenly right now!!
m enjoying every bit of it..:)) and y not...its giving me time to do what I love the most...sleep ..sleep n sleep.....after all m laziness personified...!!! there's nothing like snugging up in the warmth of the quilt till late in the morning and day dreaming and digging into my fantasies...!! I just kinda love to laze around in the mornings, napping on n off...into my whims n fancies...n having the ultra yummy christmas cakes for breakfast.....I shudn't be askin for more...!!!

"I prefer to be a dreamer among the humblest, with visions to be realized, than lord among those without dreams and desires" - Kahlil Gibran

Friday, December 26, 2008

the winter evenings...

I was at my grandma's place today...the day went on with the regular chatting n stuff. As the evening drew up,I decided to go out for a stroll in the colony....the place where I grew up...the place that has given me best of friends. though none of them are still around there but I stepped out with an anticipation, a feeling or just simply wanting to meet them there, in those streets n lanes we can so well relate to-the lanes could narrate our fights, our games,our secret talks,our crushes, our love lifes,our blunders so well.Out under the star lit sky,I realised the chill in the city is getting to its best...and the walks in the lanes n the by lanes was just so amazing…the very same lanes where I grew up cycling, playing badminton, and then graduated to the cozy evening walks with..!!!!
It was the same chill, the same lanes n the same feeling. It made me happy n all smiley…m not a winter person but these walks in winters at times can get the child out in me….I was enjpying the chill n let myself in it instead of wrapping myself in the usual warm n snuggy stuff. I was enjoying the calmness in the air, in the mind.

To top it all, I went to d gud ol’ Mother Dairy that has been a witness to so many big n small celebrations of mine. It once again became a part of the glee I was feeling in me with a cup of my usual ice-cream…umm…ice-cream while walking down the damn chilly dimly lit streets is a feeling words cannot describe….it makes u totally experience dilli ki sardi…

an evening cherished..:)

Sunday, December 21, 2008

dew on the green carpet

Dew on the green carpet,
Birds chirping in their nests,
Some are warm in their quilts,
Some are guarding others concrete.

The sun is struggling to spread its warmth
Beyond the clouds that have come down from heaven.

The ruins of the hours spent by
Tell the story for everyone..
Its burnt coal and tree branches for some
For others it’s a spread out quilt.

But the dew on the green carpet
Is the same for everyone.

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Dog Mania

The reason a dog has so many friends is that he wags his tail instead of his tongue.

There is no psychiatrist in the world like a puppy licking your face.
Ben Williams

A dog is the only thing on earth that loves you more than he loves himself.
Josh Billings

The average dog is a nicer person than the average person.
Andy Rooney

Dogs love their friends & bite their enemies, quite unlike people.

If your dog is fat, you aren't getting enough exercise .

Women and cats will do as they please, and men and dogs should relax and get used to the idea.
Robert A. Heinlein

If you pick up a starving dog and make him prosperous, he will not bite you; that is the principal difference between a dog and a man.
Mark Twain

Dogs are not our whole life, but they make our lives whole.
Roger Caras

If you think dogs can't count, try putting three dog biscuits in your pocket and then give him only two of them.
Phil Pastoret


I am scared….for why do I feel so detached after all the happiness, after all has went well.. I feel nice but still there is a void…..why that loneliness…

Why do I wait for some soul to come and answer all my questions…to finish up all that I have left unanswered….
Do miracles really happen…or m I over sizing my goals…m scared that will I be able to achieve what I am aiming at….am I sure what m looking up to is the best, the perfect for me….

Will it be right to open up my dark secrets to anyone, will that person be trustworthy enough to not be back fire it on me….
Why am I feeling so scared to move ahead…to take risks…I have not been like this before….m feeling dependent, m holding myself back….why?

M scared..scared to move ahead coz nothing has been so hazy, so blurred before…decisions have not been so tough before…I need my guiding light to be with me once everytime…..

You know one of the most difficult things in the world is to come to terms with your own self. Both your greatness and your weakness.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Wanted...part 2

A few days ago I had updated a list of things I want in my life to happen….and to this day I realize what are we doing in our lifes..what are we here for….are we doing anything purposeful…nything that could change this world… nothing…zilch….zero…

What we are doing is running after our dreams…and fulfilling a handful of responsibilities that come our way as duties….

What are dreams? Our dreams are our wishes, our desires..its our ego….its our subtle way of saying or showing the world who we really are…with money, power, with status.

And when these dreams aren’t fulfilled we are shattered, frustrated, broken, ..we revolt around and shout about the world’s unfairness to us….the ego is bruised.

We have made our lives complex by the growing giving all the socially acceptable names and tags to all the not so acceptable things…

Don’t you think childhood was simpler….everything was clearer. A yes or a no would end it all. A child has the freedom to say no to a touch, to a pinch, to an arm he doesn’t like…. A child has the freedom to ask for things she likes and throw away things she hates…a child has the freedom to be brutually honest…

We ourselves have robbed ourselves of this innocence, of that freedom….to pursue our so called dreams….

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

That Dawn...

It was a usual morning we woke up to.
But someone came with its wings spread wide..
Its just that we were ignorant of its presence..
Standing tall outside…
Waiting to take away what was precious to so many of us…

We fought, we tried …
There was anxiety, chaos..
There were prayers with tearful eyes…
To let everything be as before…
But it wasn’t to be…
It had come but we couldn’t see it till the last..
Our conscience hits us for it till date…
It took you away…away..far away….

That dawn brought with it a thousand sunsets…

m learning....

I have lived two and a half decades
but I learn everyday
how to deal with cowards.
how to deal with maniacs.
how to deal with always sex on the mind men.
how to deal with life..

m learning..
how to smile with a baby...
look at the world from the eyes of innocence...
m learning how to look at the world from the transition from innocence to smartness.
m learning to be street smart.

m learning..
to understand friends..
to understand family...
to understand colleagues...
to understand relations…

m learning..
to rise up..
to raise my voice…
to let others know that m here….

m learning……

i want it dat way....

Its coming to me again….its creeping in slowly..i can see it…but m still not able to stop it..deep down I want it come..I can stop it but I know I won’t…it does give me relief…it does take me out of this world what if it brings along a little hurt and a little pain….
I'm waiting for all of it to hit me. I'm waiting for my little fuzzy wisps of happiness to be hushed away by the looming reality of something that I can see but still m blind to it…

heal the world....

this song is on my mind since...

There's a place in your heart, and I know that it is love
And this place could be much brighter than tomorrow
And if you really try, you'll find there's no need to cry
In this place you'll feel, there's no hurt or sorrow
There are ways to get there
If you care enough for the living
Make a little space, make a better place
Heal the world make it a better place
For you and for me and the entire human race

There are people dying if you care enough for the living
Make a better place for you and for me

If you want to know why, there's a love that cannot lie
Love is strong, it only cares for joyful giving if we try
We shall see in this bliss, we cannot feel fear or dread
We stop existing and start living
Then it feels that always love's enough for us growing
So make a better world, make a better world

And the dream we were conceived
In will reveal a joyful face
And the world we once believed in will shine again in grace
Then why do we keep strangling life wound this earth crucify
ts soul though it's plain to see this world is heavenly be God's glow
We could fly so high let our spirits never die in my heart
I feel you are all my brothers create a world with no fear
Together we'll cry happy tears see the nations turn
Their swords into plowshares
We could really get there if you cared enough for the living
Make a little space, to make a better place
For you and for me .......