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Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts
Showing posts with label emotions. Show all posts
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Friday, December 26, 2008
the winter evenings...
I was at my grandma's place today...the day went on with the regular chatting n stuff. As the evening drew up,I decided to go out for a stroll in the colony....the place where I grew up...the place that has given me best of friends. though none of them are still around there but I stepped out with an anticipation, a feeling or just simply wanting to meet them there, in those streets n lanes we can so well relate to-the lanes could narrate our fights, our games,our secret talks,our crushes, our love lifes,our blunders so well.Out under the star lit sky,I realised the chill in the city is getting to its best...and the walks in the lanes n the by lanes was just so amazing…the very same lanes where I grew up cycling, playing badminton, and then graduated to the cozy evening walks with..!!!!
It was the same chill, the same lanes n the same feeling. It made me happy n all smiley…m not a winter person but these walks in winters at times can get the child out in me….I was enjpying the chill n let myself in it instead of wrapping myself in the usual warm n snuggy stuff. I was enjoying the calmness in the air, in the mind.
To top it all, I went to d gud ol’ Mother Dairy that has been a witness to so many big n small celebrations of mine. It once again became a part of the glee I was feeling in me with a cup of my usual ice-cream…umm…ice-cream while walking down the damn chilly dimly lit streets is a feeling words cannot describe….it makes u totally experience dilli ki sardi…
an evening cherished..:)
It was the same chill, the same lanes n the same feeling. It made me happy n all smiley…m not a winter person but these walks in winters at times can get the child out in me….I was enjpying the chill n let myself in it instead of wrapping myself in the usual warm n snuggy stuff. I was enjoying the calmness in the air, in the mind.
To top it all, I went to d gud ol’ Mother Dairy that has been a witness to so many big n small celebrations of mine. It once again became a part of the glee I was feeling in me with a cup of my usual ice-cream…umm…ice-cream while walking down the damn chilly dimly lit streets is a feeling words cannot describe….it makes u totally experience dilli ki sardi…
an evening cherished..:)
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
That Dawn...
It was a usual morning we woke up to.
But someone came with its wings spread wide..
Its just that we were ignorant of its presence..
Standing tall outside…
Waiting to take away what was precious to so many of us…
We fought, we tried …
There was anxiety, chaos..
There were prayers with tearful eyes…
To let everything be as before…
But it wasn’t to be…
It had come but we couldn’t see it till the last..
Our conscience hits us for it till date…
It took you away…away..far away….
That dawn brought with it a thousand sunsets…
But someone came with its wings spread wide..
Its just that we were ignorant of its presence..
Standing tall outside…
Waiting to take away what was precious to so many of us…
We fought, we tried …
There was anxiety, chaos..
There were prayers with tearful eyes…
To let everything be as before…
But it wasn’t to be…
It had come but we couldn’t see it till the last..
Our conscience hits us for it till date…
It took you away…away..far away….
That dawn brought with it a thousand sunsets…
i want it dat way....
Its coming to me again….its creeping in slowly..i can see it…but m still not able to stop it..deep down I want it come..I can stop it but I know I won’t…it does give me relief…it does take me out of this world ..so what if it brings along a little hurt and a little pain….
I'm waiting for all of it to hit me. I'm waiting for my little fuzzy wisps of happiness to be hushed away by the looming reality of something that I can see but still m blind to it…
I'm waiting for all of it to hit me. I'm waiting for my little fuzzy wisps of happiness to be hushed away by the looming reality of something that I can see but still m blind to it…
Sunday, November 9, 2008
Those Special Moments...
Those times when sitting alone, you just smiled……
Those times with friends,in the crowded of places, you have the most philosophical conversations…
That moment when you score more than you expected to…
That moment when you make small problems turn your life upside down and then smile later at your stupidity…
Those times when u end up sharing your dark secrets with the person u have disliked all this while..
Those times when we mis-judge people and then become best of friends later on…
That moment when you think of someone and the next second, her name flashes on your cell phone….
Those times when you went to college promising yourself to attend all the lectures, but end up sitting in the lawns with your best friend and all the junk food from the canteen and endless talks…
Those times of college when you intend to go to the third floor, but end up on the terrace engrossed in conversation….
Those project trips from college, the night stays at friends place and discussing what not….
The moment when someone who is very very close to you is going away from you,its paining inside but you smile and wish no matter where they go they always be happy..
A song on radio reminding you of someone….
The first breeze of winter…
Gazing at the star studded sky, cool breeze…all alone and at peace….
The priceless smile on your face when you bump into your childhood crush…
An inspiring SMS when you are feeling all down and out…
The mild rain and long walks…..and unforgettable conversations….
20 bucks and two hungry stomachs…
3.30 am….and still eager to talk more….
All of us have had those special moments….the small things of life that make it worth living. This reminds of the scene in Bluffmaster when Boman Irani asks Abhishek Bachhan to feel those special moments in life…..all of us have ours that makes what we call nostalgia…..and leaves us with a loss of words but million dollar smiles…..
Those times with friends,in the crowded of places, you have the most philosophical conversations…
That moment when you score more than you expected to…
That moment when you make small problems turn your life upside down and then smile later at your stupidity…
Those times when u end up sharing your dark secrets with the person u have disliked all this while..
Those times when we mis-judge people and then become best of friends later on…
That moment when you think of someone and the next second, her name flashes on your cell phone….
Those times when you went to college promising yourself to attend all the lectures, but end up sitting in the lawns with your best friend and all the junk food from the canteen and endless talks…
Those times of college when you intend to go to the third floor, but end up on the terrace engrossed in conversation….
Those project trips from college, the night stays at friends place and discussing what not….
The moment when someone who is very very close to you is going away from you,its paining inside but you smile and wish no matter where they go they always be happy..
A song on radio reminding you of someone….
The first breeze of winter…
Gazing at the star studded sky, cool breeze…all alone and at peace….
The priceless smile on your face when you bump into your childhood crush…
An inspiring SMS when you are feeling all down and out…
The mild rain and long walks…..and unforgettable conversations….
20 bucks and two hungry stomachs…
3.30 am….and still eager to talk more….
All of us have had those special moments….the small things of life that make it worth living. This reminds of the scene in Bluffmaster when Boman Irani asks Abhishek Bachhan to feel those special moments in life…..all of us have ours that makes what we call nostalgia…..and leaves us with a loss of words but million dollar smiles…..
Saturday, November 8, 2008
A Memorable Day
5th November….a very hectic day…lot of tension at work coz the next dawn brings with it an important milestone which will hopefully be achieved by the organization….there’s anxiety in the air, people are nervous but hopeful, preparations in full swing, a few arguments coz the pressure was taking the better side of every one…. The day ends hoping the next one is pleasant….get back home with a little work to be done and gear up for the big day….I feel a slight headache..just throw my papers aside…get on the net..try to work out and plan…not interested..just let it go…..hook on to one of the social networking sites…huh…no one online……( why is it that no fool is online when I genuinely need them…otherwise they are always there to waste their time and mine as well???)
well well…I realize I have to fill up an exam form…actually have been giving it since past 2 years but never qualified despite all my desperate attempts…the last I gave was my 4th attempt…and the result is expected any time soon….the day after is the last day for submission…so I run, fill it up and get it attested from my neighbour…come back…glued to the net again….casually just check the website…..and oh my God….the 4th attempt result is out….I do my prayers…and then call my sis to check the result..( coz m superstitious…I never check my result)…she is fumbling through the long never ending list of roll nos….I wasn’t very hopefull but yet hoping that its positive…and to my delight it indeed is….Oh my God!!! I just cannot believe it…m gaping with surprise, wonder, shock….and tears rolling down my cheeks…my mom n dad rush and hug me with excitement but my eyes are still on the screen trying to believe that my roll no. is there….I just could not believe it…past 2 years I have been working hard for this exam but the result had always been disappointing….so it was hard for me to believe that I had finally cracked it….i just cry and cry while my mom hugs me…I don’ t know why I was crying but I know I was….that reality was difficult to believe…..its been 3 days now but everyday I check the website to see my roll no. there….:))
its been something I have desperately wanted since past two years but when I have got it…m finding it difficult to believe…
strange how things just come up suddenly…..it was work as usual throughout the day and not a pleasant day to say the least and suddenly it became so so so memorable…..a date to remember…a day that turned my hope into a reality…
that’s life I guess…..
I thank the almighty, the guiding light for being with me….always.
well well…I realize I have to fill up an exam form…actually have been giving it since past 2 years but never qualified despite all my desperate attempts…the last I gave was my 4th attempt…and the result is expected any time soon….the day after is the last day for submission…so I run, fill it up and get it attested from my neighbour…come back…glued to the net again….casually just check the website…..and oh my God….the 4th attempt result is out….I do my prayers…and then call my sis to check the result..( coz m superstitious…I never check my result)…she is fumbling through the long never ending list of roll nos….I wasn’t very hopefull but yet hoping that its positive…and to my delight it indeed is….Oh my God!!! I just cannot believe it…m gaping with surprise, wonder, shock….and tears rolling down my cheeks…my mom n dad rush and hug me with excitement but my eyes are still on the screen trying to believe that my roll no. is there….I just could not believe it…past 2 years I have been working hard for this exam but the result had always been disappointing….so it was hard for me to believe that I had finally cracked it….i just cry and cry while my mom hugs me…I don’ t know why I was crying but I know I was….that reality was difficult to believe…..its been 3 days now but everyday I check the website to see my roll no. there….:))
its been something I have desperately wanted since past two years but when I have got it…m finding it difficult to believe…
strange how things just come up suddenly…..it was work as usual throughout the day and not a pleasant day to say the least and suddenly it became so so so memorable…..a date to remember…a day that turned my hope into a reality…
that’s life I guess…..
I thank the almighty, the guiding light for being with me….always.
Monday, October 27, 2008
freedom
Its easy enough to abandon your past and just live,
though only the desolate are granted this form of emptiness called Freedom.
Tuesday, October 21, 2008
The Mindgames
Today I was over hearing a conversation between two girls seated in front of me in the bus.One of them was depressed and the other one was counseling her and repeatedly accusing her friend of thinking from the heart which leads to problems in her life. Now this caught my attention. We often talk about thinking from the heart and the head….it is commonly believed or atleast we all talk about in our daily conversations that people who supposedly are considered to think from the heart wear their emotions on their sleev whereas others who are considered to be more practical ones are not emotinal in their decisions and are good decision makers blah blah & blah... I mean, come on do we think from the heart??
Its all in the mind…..all our emotions are mindgames. Its our mind, our head that controls whatever we do and not our heart. Its pure simple logic which has been thrown out of the window in our conversations. All our emotions- love, hate, jealousy, attachment, detachment, sadness, happiness, anxiety, pressure- its all in the mind. Our mind is the controlling factor and not the heart. Wonder why that such a strong emotion like love is considered to be from the heart where in actuality or scientifically heart has no role to play.It is from our own will that we feel a particular emotion be it any. It is we who allow ourselves to love, hate,envy or feel jealousness towards aomeone. Its all in our mind and mind controls our emotions.
As I am trying to put it in words my feeling is changing from a thought to amusement for biologically heart is just an organ that controls other organs and blood circulation. It does not control our emotions…..love, hate is not from the heart….and ha ha…we all believe that it’s the heart at fault!!! It’s the heart that breaks..!! not realizing its our own mindgames, our will, our decisions that makes us do what we do….
Its all in the mind……
JUST A THOUGHT:
bcoz at one time it was what you wanted......
Its all in the mind…..all our emotions are mindgames. Its our mind, our head that controls whatever we do and not our heart. Its pure simple logic which has been thrown out of the window in our conversations. All our emotions- love, hate, jealousy, attachment, detachment, sadness, happiness, anxiety, pressure- its all in the mind. Our mind is the controlling factor and not the heart. Wonder why that such a strong emotion like love is considered to be from the heart where in actuality or scientifically heart has no role to play.It is from our own will that we feel a particular emotion be it any. It is we who allow ourselves to love, hate,envy or feel jealousness towards aomeone. Its all in our mind and mind controls our emotions.
As I am trying to put it in words my feeling is changing from a thought to amusement for biologically heart is just an organ that controls other organs and blood circulation. It does not control our emotions…..love, hate is not from the heart….and ha ha…we all believe that it’s the heart at fault!!! It’s the heart that breaks..!! not realizing its our own mindgames, our will, our decisions that makes us do what we do….
Its all in the mind……
JUST A THOUGHT:
Never regret any thing,
bcoz at one time it was what you wanted......
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