Friday, November 28, 2008

Terrorists have succeeded

Mr. Prime Minister, in his so called address to the nation didn’t seem to believe in even one word or syllable of what he said. And why would he? He and all of his circle are sitting at home with their securities right in place. He would be completing his tenure in another few months. His government too faced problems like all others. His government too did what all others did…. Do not act and do not react…those who shout and make noise will calm down. Or is he genuinely helpless and waiting for a Naseeruddin Shah to come up and say ‘Koi M*******d, button dabake ye nahi tai karega ki mujhe kab aur kaha marna hai”

But thats exactly whats been happening.The terrorists have succeeded in their mission….they have been hitting hard on the country..they have showed it to us that they can and they will….they will hit us hard, in our ***** and we will keep watching numb and helpless.

Its not about Mumbai or Delhi anymore. It isn’t about “thank God my near and dear ones are safe.” What was the fault of those cops who laid down their lifes? What about those innocent people at the railway station or on the roads? What about those people in the hotels and the hotel staff? I am not intending to play the blame game here. But my only question is WHY? WHY US?

Why can’t our so called leaders lead the country to a safer high rather than making it vulnerable with every coming day? What is our intelligence doing? Can the politicians stop meddling with the law and order of the country for their own selfish interests? They have their Z security with them. We have a right to ask the same for us…will they be able to even face this question? This is absolute muck on the faces of the leaders of the country only if they realize it…they have politicized politics..its bizarre…. Its elections in Delhi tomorrow and as I go on the road, there are posters of BJP criticizing Congress for all the terrorism that has been happening around. Can I ask what difference would BJP have made? Nobody is here to lead the country..everyone is here for self power and money. Politics has become a game for all these people. The commom man is nothing.

Since Wednesday night, I have been terribly disturbed. I have many questions? It happened in USA once and never again did terrorists dare to strike back there? Why is India such a soft target? We have a great army and NSG team…why havn’t they been able to barge in and kill the pests…its been 24 hrs ???? It’s a shame not only for the present government but all the past governments as well. They have been ignoring this and to this day that it has taken a hazardous face. They like boasting about nuclear power. The political circle of the country was reduced to a child’s game to win support for the nuclear deal….Damn you will you save the people? What are your bloody nuclear weapons going to do now? Every hard earned penny of the people who died and who are living to see an uncertain fate is being wasted. The government will not do anything to build a secure future for us. I don’t know if I am able to come back from work tomorrow. I may be gunned down in the middle of the road. I should bloody well enjoy with the money that I earn rather than paying futile taxes to this irresponsible leadership.

I am angered by what my country has been put through .I am feeling helpless and I am feeling frustrated.

Should we want this bizarre to be normalized to wake to another dawn conditioned that this has become a normal occurrence???

Sunday, November 23, 2008


I have so many things in mind that I want,but I still can't really say that this is really want I want. Infact i want all of it....sslluurrrpp!!!

I have lot of professional dreams. I want them to be fulfilled ASAP.I dn’t want to wait. I am too impatient for that one step at a time theory. I think I need some counseling….

A man who will support my decisions and respect me for who I am. A man who would not expect those ‘a woman has to do this’ stuff from me coz my brain cells have not been engineered that way.

I want some decent bank balance which I can spend lavishly!!( pls dnt bother to ask me to define ‘decent’.)

My stupid friend is getting married and moving on to a different city……gosh….y couldn’t u find some nice guy in our city???.........i’ll miss u P…

I want to go on a holiday every 2 months to a nice hill station and into solace….is that asking for too much??

I want a splendid cook by my side all my life…coz I hate to cook….but I need to eat yummy food. The rats in my stomach have taste buds too….

I am laziness personified….will someone help me get out of this syndrome or u’ll see me knocked out of the house in a few months. :( :(

Will update the list soon…;)

Sunday, November 9, 2008

Those Special Moments...

Those times when sitting alone, you just smiled……

Those times with friends,in the crowded of places, you have the most philosophical conversations…

That moment when you score more than you expected to…

That moment when you make small problems turn your life upside down and then smile later at your stupidity…

Those times when u end up sharing your dark secrets with the person u have disliked all this while..

Those times when we mis-judge people and then become best of friends later on…

That moment when you think of someone and the next second, her name flashes on your cell phone….

Those times when you went to college promising yourself to attend all the lectures, but end up sitting in the lawns with your best friend and all the junk food from the canteen and endless talks…

Those times of college when you intend to go to the third floor, but end up on the terrace engrossed in conversation….

Those project trips from college, the night stays at friends place and discussing what not….

The moment when someone who is very very close to you is going away from you,its paining inside but you smile and wish no matter where they go they always be happy..

A song on radio reminding you of someone….

The first breeze of winter…

Gazing at the star studded sky, cool breeze…all alone and at peace….

The priceless smile on your face when you bump into your childhood crush…

An inspiring SMS when you are feeling all down and out…

The mild rain and long walks…..and unforgettable conversations….

20 bucks and two hungry stomachs…

3.30 am….and still eager to talk more….

All of us have had those special moments….the small things of life that make it worth living. This reminds of the scene in Bluffmaster when Boman Irani asks Abhishek Bachhan to feel those special moments in life…..all of us have ours that makes what we call nostalgia…..and leaves us with a loss of words but million dollar smiles…..

Saturday, November 8, 2008

A Memorable Day

5th November….a very hectic day…lot of tension at work coz the next dawn brings with it an important milestone which will hopefully be achieved by the organization….there’s anxiety in the air, people are nervous but hopeful, preparations in full swing, a few arguments coz the pressure was taking the better side of every one…. The day ends hoping the next one is pleasant….get back home with a little work to be done and gear up for the big day….I feel a slight headache..just throw my papers aside…get on the net..try to work out and plan…not interested..just let it go…..hook on to one of the social networking sites…huh…no one online……( why is it that no fool is online when I genuinely need them…otherwise they are always there to waste their time and mine as well???)

well well…I realize I have to fill up an exam form…actually have been giving it since past 2 years but never qualified despite all my desperate attempts…the last I gave was my 4th attempt…and the result is expected any time soon….the day after is the last day for submission…so I run, fill it up and get it attested from my neighbour…come back…glued to the net again….casually just check the website…..and oh my God….the 4th attempt result is out….I do my prayers…and then call my sis to check the result..( coz m superstitious…I never check my result)…she is fumbling through the long never ending list of roll nos….I wasn’t very hopefull but yet hoping that its positive…and to my delight it indeed is….Oh my God!!! I just cannot believe it…m gaping with surprise, wonder, shock….and tears rolling down my cheeks…my mom n dad rush and hug me with excitement but my eyes are still on the screen trying to believe that my roll no. is there….I just could not believe it…past 2 years I have been working hard for this exam but the result had always been disappointing….so it was hard for me to believe that I had finally cracked it….i just cry and cry while my mom hugs me…I don’ t know why I was crying but I know I was….that reality was difficult to believe…..its been 3 days now but everyday I check the website to see my roll no. there….:))

its been something I have desperately wanted since past two years but when I have got it…m finding it difficult to believe…

strange how things just come up suddenly… was work as usual throughout the day and not a pleasant day to say the least and suddenly it became so so so memorable…..a date to remember…a day that turned my hope into a reality…

that’s life I guess…..

I thank the almighty, the guiding light for being with me….always.